Tired of getting broken

Love. Love, is something so suci where we need to have a commitment and full of cooperation with one another. I found that, some couple, they were just having fun and dump each other after they get bored or whatever it is, well for me, it is so dumb. I’m not good when it’s come to a relationship. Because I used to be in a relationship with someone  for quite a long time, but you know, people change and I don’t know how and why but at that moment I just realize that I’m alone.

While I’m in a relationship with him, I’m the happiest kid. I’d do everything that I could to make him happy, and for sure, he did the same thing as what am I doing. He’s so, you know, complicated? Yes, he is, but there’s a good in him where, he never failed to reminds me about agama and stuffs like that. He tried his hard on getting into me and make me happy, but as what I said, people do, changing.

And I admit, that I’m also, too complicated, where even my parents barely hard to handle me. I just think that I’m the one who had right on him, like a married couple? Yes, that was how I thought me and him was. I’m wrong, things were going crazy and I’m just trying my best, well that best, I guess were just not so best. Maybe I should put a low expectations before starts something, or maybe I should just let everything be, like what Allah have fixed up for me. I should listen to this quote of, jodoh pertemuan ajal maut semua di tangan Allah. But I refused, I’m still trying well, as a result, I failed.

He was my everything, from the day I met him to the day he left me, or to the day me left him. I don’t know, since that day I’m a bit confused about everything, all I need is an explanation which, no one can ever give it to me.

I’m so sad, there’s a piece of my heart which is still missing and I hope I can get it back. But I know, he still there, holding my heart where I hope, this time he hold it carefully.

To anyone, who is in a relationship, please, do take care of your partner, don’t try to be perfect, but try to be her/his best. Be yourself, be what make you an hero of her/his life because the day they are going will be the miserable day of your life, macam orang tua tua kata, benda ada depan mata kita tak pedulikan tapi bila dah pergi baru reti nak meroyan or stuff like that.